So last night was fun. I slipped the hot waiter my number. Let's just say a fun time was had by all.

Today I saw Miracle with Tarah and Patrick Roy. That movie rocked, and totally was worth the wait. :) I love hockey!

The Flyers beat the Devils! Go Fly Boys! Bobby Esche!!! :)

Tonight I am going out with the girls! :) I've missed them since I last saw them in December. We are going to shop til we drop, and share stories and laugh just like it was in high school. Anyway, tonight T-bone is staying over so we can see Miracle tomorrow. We have been waiting forever to see this movie, and I can't wait to finally see it! :)

Today, I should have written a rough draft of a speech for my IH debate, but I didn't. I needed some rest and some playtime with Ciaran. Maybe I'll finish it, maybe I won't. Only time will tell. I still have one more ten page paper to write before this "break" is finished. God, I can't wait until summer!

I wish they made Oreos more body-friendly. However, they didn't, and I continue to eat a whole plate of them while drinking a delicious glass of milk. How do I eat an Oreo, you ask? I dunk it and then eat it whole. I guess I have a big mouth, and I am able to. :D

How do you eat an Oreo?

I really wish they would stop haunting my dreams. But I can't control my dreams. I am a prisoner to their vivid scenes that leave me with tears in my eyes as I wake in the morning. Maybe someday life will be like that...like it is in sleep. That day is not today, and I know it won't be tomorrow. Maybe it will be the day after next.

Always the optimist, I look for something good in everything. Not. Hahaha, I am the most jaded person I know. Sad really. I wish I could have faith like you do, and I wish I viewed the world and life with the same optimism. I'm sorry I'm not as perfect as you, but someday I hope to be. Thanks for the patience.

Blackbird Fly Away
Serena Matthews

Like a broken basketball
on a dirty backyard court,
I was unable to roll away
but I have air now

Up this ladder, I keep climbing
trying to reach a little farther
dig my hands into the water
breaking up the storm
(and there she goes)

Blackbird, fly away
into the hollow sky
Blackbird, take me with you
'cause I can't fly
I'll hold on tightly
(but I can't fly)

Looking up , I reach out
stealing falling feathers
as they tumble to the ground
it's strange how they
work so well for you
while slowing me down
(blackbird, I envy you)

I could leave here on my own
if my heart was not so heavy
maybe you can teach me
how to swim in the sky

Blackbird, fly away
into the hollow sky
Blackbird, take me with you
'cause I can't fly
I'll hold on tightly


Today's word of the day: message.

I got the message long ago. The message that read: Dear Beth, we're sorry, but life isn't what you think it is. You can't make your own life, you just have to roll with the punches. We're sorry if this has caused some inconvenience along the way, but I'm sure someday you'll find what your looking for. Its not you, its me.

Hahahahahahaha...yeah right. SHUT UP!

P.S. Am I the only one who never had a crush on Jose Vega? I love the guy to death, (yeah 'Ros IX!) but he was just a really nice friend. Not boyfriend material for me. I'd like all of you to ponder this today. Did you have ever have a crush on Jose Vega?

"carefully strumming this old guitar/words rolling out into the fire/never ask why my heart burns blue/here in the haze where you inspire/here in the darkness I hear my cue/time to find some solitude/here where my soul bleeds openly/deep in the heart of sin and you/here in the blue/I'm falling deep into you/here in the blue/I'm dancing with you/and it feels fine" -Serena Matthews

Yeah, I love her music. I just bought her new cd. Its very folkish but I insist every one of you check her out at www.serenamatthews.com

I get to see T-Bone today! :) I missed her so very much.

The Blues Clues band-aid that I am wearing is to remind me that I have not yet grown up, nor do I ever want to. With that said, my body doesn't agree and has decided to make me work harder for my figure. Now I have to work out, or stop eating as much. When did eating become so much fun? Oh yeah, I remember...that's what I learned at college.

I would like to say that like Lorna, I also hate being on the second page of the CD blogring.

To quote Monica, "how have you been?= how have you been without me?" really hit a nerve today. I wish I could be at that point, but I'm not. More power to you, girl.

She hides behind the shadows of places she used to know, always scared of who she might run into. She always prays it won't be him; silently dreading the day when he comes into her focus.

I drove down your street today and almost had a panic attack. Luckily, I turned before I went past your house, and everything was ok. I promise that someday I will be over all of this. Just give me some time.

Maybe someday I will find something worthwhile to say in here. But then, who would I be kidding? It wouldn't be me, if it wasn't pointless ramblings.