She filed for divorce after she found out her husband was cheating on her. She did this at a time when society talked behind your back in whispers if it found out that you were the big "D" word. Her mentor left for Europe without a man, on her own, to find her future. Mona Lisa Smile was an excellent movie. Go see it. I am so empowered.

I'm glad she didn't go back to him. Even goddesses need love too.

"Look at her, she's smiling. But is she really happy? She looks happy, but is she really happy on the inside?" -Mona Lisa Smile

I read her web journal and wondered how she could be so gifted with words when we both came from the same school of thought. I just never got the talent, I suppose.

Frank Sinatra is soothing to the soul.

Its 2004...an even year, which for some reason, makes everyone feel better. Why is that, I wonder? Anyway, I never make New Year's Resolutions or promises because I most likely will break them...so here are some New Year's "Suggestions" as I fondly call them.

1) Start working out...yes, Bethany, that means stomach crunches...I will start this time.
2) Enjoy my semester, and not worry about things...because somehow they always work out in the end.
3) Live. Again.

These are suggestions so if I don't follow through, I won't feel like a failure. Anyway, it was another banner year at my house. We went to our annual family party. There's nothing like seeing all your cousins with their significant others, and having them rub it in your face, how yes, you really are single. My God, is it a fucking crime? No. So blow me. Thank you and have a nice day.

A survey I got from Joe who got it from Alex....sums up my year.

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? Graduated High school and started Temple
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I hate New Year's....plain and simple
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? umm probably.
4. Did anyone close to you die? thankfully, no.
5. What countries did you visit? Did I go to Canada this year?
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? Peace of mind
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? June 5th, 2003. Graduation
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Honestly, the 3.6 I got this semester.
9. What was your biggest failure? Not being accepted into temple's music school
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Probably
11. What was the best thing you bought? Cell phone
12. Where did most of your money go? College
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Lots of things...won't mention here.
16. What song will always remind you of 2003? John Mayer songs
17. Compared to this time last year, how are you? I'll go with Joe on this one..."Much more jaded"
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? schoolwork
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? schoolwork
20. Did you fall in love in 2003? Yes
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24. What was your favorite TV program? Alias
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No
26. What was the best book you read? Lovely Bones
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Penny Framstad and Serena Mathews
28. What did you want and get? Umm, good grades (wow I'm really boring)
29. What did you want and not get? Yeah....
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Lord of the Rings the Return Of the King
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? John Mayer concert...Phillies game....18
32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Huh?
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? I don't care...therefore, I don't have one.
34. What kept you sane? Tarah
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Orlando Bloom
36. What political issue stirred you the most? The war in Iraq...don't get me started.
37. Who did you miss? High school friends
38. Who was the best new person you met? 8th floor peeps, and Search people
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003? Life sucks so get a helmet.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "Its times like these you learn to live again..." -Foo Fighters

I spent the day in New Hope and Peddler's Village with my family, aimlessly wandering until our dinner reservation at 4:30 p.m. Needless to say, I've had a little too much family time, and surprisingly, I am actually looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I kind of miss my crazy co-workers and their constant bitching. Plus, I miss hearing Dr. Black's crazy, sarcastic, British voice. T-Bone Salad is supposed to come over tomorrow and we will be spending our third New Year's Eve in a row together. Hmm...I wonder if I should get her a gift to celebrate our three year anniversary? HAHA..no. Anyway, I'd like to personally thank T-Bone for the lovely e-mail she sent me this morning that I thoroughly enjoyed. Only she will know why I enjoyed it, and for that I am truly grateful.

Life sucks, so get a goddamn helmet.

One add-in. Does anyone else think Clay AIken is a perv, and a peeping tom? Listen to his lyrics: "If I was invisible/ I could just watch you in your room." Eww.

"Crazy isn't about being broken, some big secret that swallows you whole...it's just you and me---amplified." -Girl, Interrupted

I watched that movie last night. Angelina Jolie is hot. I know, Erica, you love her too, but I just can't share her. However, I will make a bargain with you, and give up Shakira. So you get Shakira, I get Angelina, and everything is right with the world. Well, now that you all think I am a lesbian, I'm going to continue with my ramblings.

I have been crazy lately. Crazy about scholarship essays that I have to write within the next few days. If I am going to Ireland in Junior year I have to start saving money next year. So, hopefully, I'll get a few thousand dollar scholarships and all will be fine. I need to go to Ireland. At this point, that is the only thing that is driving me through the next few semesters at my shitty college. I suppose its my own fault, and I'm hoping next semester is better. I've decided to be Ms. Temple and actualy join some things, so we'll see.