My pillow smelled like him tonight. I don't know why, but I slept a lot better because of it. I'm still not sleeping through the night because my mattress is a piece of crap, but I'm working through it. I woke up less last night, because I felt the comfort of his warm body still there with me.

I'm just rolling through the punches....

Troubled Mind
Catie Curtis

I've been getting down
About all the runaround
About all the questioning
And the standing in the night
But like my friends say
You got to do it anyway
And it just gets harder
When you ask why

And I'm tired from all the weight
Tired of being strong
So won't you come and stay
And let me lay
Down in your arms
Down in your arms

I've been getting up early
I've been getting my coffee
I've been getting in the car and driving
All over town
Talking to myself
While I'm taking off my seatbelt
Some people don't know how to slow down

And I'm tired from all the weight
Tired of being strong
So won't you come and stay
And let me lay
Down in your arms
Down in your arms

I've got a troubled
A troubled mind
And you've got a heart
A heart so kind
So kind

So pack in over night bag
Don't worry about what you have
Cause if you need something
You can just use mine
And you don't have to promise
More than you want to
But if you want to see me
This would be a good time

Cause I'm tired from all the weight
Tired of being strong
So won't you come and stay
And let me lay
Down in your arms
Down in your arms


This is just one of those songs that you can listen to over and over. Yeah, its that kind of a day. I've probably heard it maybe five times in a row and I'm on my sixth as I write this.

I got a new toy. Well, its a trial for fifteen days, and after, if I want to pay fifty bucks for it, I can own it. Its called Blaze Media Pro, and its for recording and editing songs. Screw studying for Spanish...I got better things to do this weekend.

I miss my guitar. Its calling me, and I can hear it, but its so far away. I won't neglect it anymore...its coming with me after this weekend wherever I go.

Its really hard to write songs without it.

I have some ideas for songs from listening to Catie, Dar, and Emme. They always inspire me to get my writers block off its lazy ass....to get out there and do something.

"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." -Finding Nemo

Yeah. So that's all I'm doing right now. I have so much to do this week, and not enough time. My computer at home kicked my ass on Saturday when it took me all day to reinstall everything. That took up a big chunk of study time, thus pushing everything back. The question now is do I skip Spanish to study for my Chem test on Thursday? Or do I go to Spanish because I have a test on Monday? These are the questions that make up my day.

"I want people to remember my life philosophy: to remember to play after the storm." -Matty Stepanek

Matty, you are my hero.