Sometimes I scare myself. I put people on these pedestals sometimes, almost making them equivalent to gods. Why do I do this? Logically, it makes no sense. These people aren't gods, and they aren't immortal and when they "die" or leave my life its like God, in a sense, has died.

There's another part of it though. And that's the atheist side of everyone that questions, what if there is nothing else out there? What if we are the only ones that exist in this huge universe, both mortal and immortal?

There's an excellent quote from John Steinbeck's East of Eden that is always in the front of my mind at times like these and it is:

"The gods are fallen and all safety gone. And there is one sure thing
about the fall of gods: they do not fall a little; they crash and shatter or
sink deeply into green muck. It is a tedious job to build them up again;
theynever quite shine. And the child's world is never the same
again. It is an aching kind of growing."

John Steinbeck is a genius.

Watching the Bachelor is like reading a Maeve Binchy novel. Yes, I said it. I read Maeve Binchy novels. I enjoyed the good cry they gave me, despite how trashy Tarah claims they are. :P Anyway, in most of the novels the husband cheats on the wife with the wife's best friend. Kind of like the Bachelor, only the women aren't best friends.

In the end it all comes down to this....boys are stupid.

Election day is the only day of the year that I feel as if I am truly an American. Seeing the list of states and their percentages always made me feel connected to the other 49 states in the country.

So, voting is incredibly easy. I went in--no line, and pushed my buttons and I was finished. It took me 5 minutes. While I was leaving a young black man was coming out shouting, "I made a difference!" As I was walking up the path he said, "Yeah, go make a difference!" and high fived me. That I think is a huge difference from four years ago when not many black men voted. In my sociology class we learned that they don't because a) they don't care, or b) they were in jail or were convicted felons in the past, and the right to vote was taken away from them. I'm glad that at least those that fall into the a) category care now.

As much as I hate it, I give mad props to P Diddy for that. 20 million strong, it is we, the 18-30 year olds that will change this election. The next time there is someone running for president they will think twice before overlooking us in their target speeches.

He does things like leave a text document on my desktop saying, "You should look at this every morning.txt." When you open it, it says "I LOVE YOU :-*" This is why I love him! <3