I'm really trying to figure out this thing that everyone else understands, yet somehow, I'm not getting it. I know I've written a sentence like that before. Sometime, somewhere.....over the rainbow. I'm just really frustrated right now because I'm not getting it. I'm supposed to be doing a lot of things, but I'm not doing them. This is my last year as an undergrad, and I'm not supposed to be stressed, but I am. I have GRE's in four weeks, where, after I take them and pay my non-refundable $130, the computer gives me two minutes to decide whether I want to send my scores or scrap the test entirely. Two minutes to decide whether or not my scores are good enough for grad school.
After the GRE, I have to get my applications out, along with asking three people to write really excellent recommendations. The thing is, I know who these three people are, its just I'm scared as to what they are really going to write about me. It seems like they like me, but maybe they don't. I'll never know because I won't ever see these recommendations.
Ok, now here's the thing that's really driving me crazy. WE HAVEN'T STARTED MY STUDY YET! I am supposed to have all my data collected and analyzed written up in a 10-20 page paper, by the first week of December, and I am supposed to collect data from 40 kids. However, my study sessions take about 20 minutes a kid. According to my grade school math, that is 800 minutes, or roughly 13.3 hours. Not so bad, but I only have one day a week allotted to this so that I can make money to pay off my credit card debt. Its October now, and I haven't heard anything about when we are starting.
Now, on to the credit card. I know, I know, I am not allowed to complain about it, because its my own damn fault, but some of it is legitimate stuff like the fact that I put about 1400 dollars into my car, and spent 200 bucks on books this semester. I have absolutely no money, because my car is eating me out of house and home. It uses about 1 gallon per 11 miles. What the hell was I thinking? Thank God, gas prices are lower.
Ironically, my classes aren't really stressing me. My teachers are pretty lenient and laid-back with grading which is probably the only thing I have going for me right now.
I am just not understanding the thing that everyone else understands. They tell me to relax, and separate myself emotionally from certain things, and to focus on what I have to do to get where I want, but its so damn hard to separate myself emotionally. I'm trying really hard, but it seems as if I am getting nowhere. I just want to be appreciated for all the effort I have put into my life these past couple years.
After the GRE, I have to get my applications out, along with asking three people to write really excellent recommendations. The thing is, I know who these three people are, its just I'm scared as to what they are really going to write about me. It seems like they like me, but maybe they don't. I'll never know because I won't ever see these recommendations.
Ok, now here's the thing that's really driving me crazy. WE HAVEN'T STARTED MY STUDY YET! I am supposed to have all my data collected and analyzed written up in a 10-20 page paper, by the first week of December, and I am supposed to collect data from 40 kids. However, my study sessions take about 20 minutes a kid. According to my grade school math, that is 800 minutes, or roughly 13.3 hours. Not so bad, but I only have one day a week allotted to this so that I can make money to pay off my credit card debt. Its October now, and I haven't heard anything about when we are starting.
Now, on to the credit card. I know, I know, I am not allowed to complain about it, because its my own damn fault, but some of it is legitimate stuff like the fact that I put about 1400 dollars into my car, and spent 200 bucks on books this semester. I have absolutely no money, because my car is eating me out of house and home. It uses about 1 gallon per 11 miles. What the hell was I thinking? Thank God, gas prices are lower.
Ironically, my classes aren't really stressing me. My teachers are pretty lenient and laid-back with grading which is probably the only thing I have going for me right now.
I am just not understanding the thing that everyone else understands. They tell me to relax, and separate myself emotionally from certain things, and to focus on what I have to do to get where I want, but its so damn hard to separate myself emotionally. I'm trying really hard, but it seems as if I am getting nowhere. I just want to be appreciated for all the effort I have put into my life these past couple years.