Hey everyone. I'm back from Neshaminy Mall where Tarah and I shopped til we dropped. I bought a lot of clothes, and a nice dress for Monday night cause Mike is taking me out to dinner. Apparently, I am president of his fan club...so all of you must join as well.

I have David Gray stuck in my head today. It's ok though because I like David Gray. I have to stay home tonight and baby-sit my cousins....it kinda blows.

Had to post one more thing I forgot....this song has been in my head all day....

Let Her Cry - Hootie & The Blowfish

She sits alone by a lamppost
Trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind
She says there's the one I love the most
This time's not far behind
She never let's me in
Only tells me where she's been
When she's had too much to drink
I say that I don't care
I just run my hands through her dark hair
Then I pray to God you gotta help me fly away
And just...

Let her cry
If the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing
If it eases all her pain
Let her go
Let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be, let her be

This morning I woke up alone
Found a note standing by the phone
Saying, "Baby, maybe I'll be back someday"
I wanted to look for you
You walked in I didn't know just what I should do
So I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for myself
Saying...

Let her cry
If the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing
If it eases all her pain
Let her go
Let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be, let her be

Last night I tried to leave
Cried so much I could not believe
She was the same girl I fell in love with long ago
She went in the back to get high
And I sat down on my couch and cried
Yelling "Oh mama, please help me
Won't you hold my hand"
And...

Let her cry
If the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing
If it eases all her pain
Let her go
Let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be, let her be

Currently I am at work. My office mate has decided to make our lives better by playing her wonderful collection of cds. A few days ago I swore it would be too soon the next time I heard a Whitney Houston song. Now, we are listening to Maria Carey. Apparently, today's fad is black women's empowerment music. Let me tell you, I am empowered....Empowered to kill myself!

Work sucks. My only consolation here is that if I put in a year or two it will look good on my resume. Then, I can apply for some hot and young, rich doctor's or lawyer's office. Hopefully, he will fall madly in love with me, and we will get married and have our 2.3 kids and our white picket fence. Ahh...dreams! Well I'm off to save the world from backlog! Wish me luck!

Wow. You think you've succumbed to change, and then something happens that you are completely not ready for. I heard from two of my Bashas today, and I realized how much I've missed them, and how much I have forgotten. Its horrible actually. They were my groundings...my only Saviors for the longest time, and now I see I've cast them aside for this new life. I'm not even sure if I want it. I was just thrown into it, I have no choice in the matter. Now I am going to this party for one of them at the end of August, and I wonder if its the last time I'll see some of them. I could handle graduation, and the numerous parties associated with it, because a lot of the people there, I never liked, or never even met. This is completely different. These people were everything to me last summer. I can't say good-bye. I really can't....and I refuse to. To top it all off...my best friend is leaving around that time too. This sucks...it really does.

Last night, I went out to dinner with my Calculus class as a final good-bye before we go on our merry ways. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great either. Surprisingly, Princess talked to T-bone and I for half an hour about her upcoming college plans. Call it burying the hatchet, or supreme mockery, at least we talked before we parted ways. That will probably be the last time I see a lot of those people. Well...until our reunion. "I want to run through the halls of my high school..." Ok not really. At this point I'm like, reunion, what?! No.

Summer is winding down. But really, will it ever end?

Feelin' The Same Way
Norah Jones

The sun just slipped its note below my door
And I can't hide beneath my sheets
I've read the words before so now I know
The time has come again for me

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand
And I hope I reach it once again

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

So many times I wonder where I've gone
And how I found my way back in
I'll look around awhile for something lost
Maybe I'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend


Yeah....I have a bump on my head. I went to a going-away party yesterday for my friend, Dave, who is moving to Jacksonville, FL. Anyway, they were rocking out and Jeff was playing drums and chucked a drumstick at my head, and now there is a bump there. Luckily, the swelling has subsided and it just hurts. Ahh...good times...good times.

I realize I quote a lot here. Its only because I have to give credit to the greatness I have found in my life with words. If that made any sense.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow, or ever again. Its so annoying....but I have to do it. My only consolation next week is on Wednesday I'm supposed to go down the shore to visit an old teacher and friend for lunch. It should be pretty fun! :) Well, I'm out. Peace.