"So...let go. Just let go. Jump in. Oh well whatcha waiting for? It's alright, cause there's beauty in the breakdown. So let go. Just get in. Oh it's so amazing here. It's alright, cause there's beauty in the breakdown." -Frou Frou
Yeah... here's my breakdown. I'm tired of people telling me that money isn't all there is to life. I know it isn't, and there is such a thing as love which comes for free, but in order to survive...you have to have money. I got my paycheck today and it is fity dollars short of what I expected. My tuition is due next week. My bank account is zero.
I really don't understand how some people can be really lucky and not have to pay a cent for tuition because either they received a full scholarship, or their parents pay for all of it. My parents don't pay any of my tuition, and whatever I borrow from them in order to pay tuition or for groceries I have to pay back right away. I've worked my ass off for everything I have and its still not enough. My good grades in high school weren't enough for a full scholarship (aka the "merit scholarship" Fitz had for Temple was really not based on "merit," but it was based on financial need. Fuck me, because my dad makes too much, but not enough to pay my tuition), and my pay for the hours of work I complete never amounts to the bills I owe. I guess this is growing up.
I wake up every morning at 8 a.m. for class or work, and go to bed at 11, but wind up not falling asleep until 3 or 4 a.m. because of the loud surroundings I live in now. Call it lack of sleep, or whatever the hell you want, but I am breaking down.
Yeah... here's my breakdown. I'm tired of people telling me that money isn't all there is to life. I know it isn't, and there is such a thing as love which comes for free, but in order to survive...you have to have money. I got my paycheck today and it is fity dollars short of what I expected. My tuition is due next week. My bank account is zero.
I really don't understand how some people can be really lucky and not have to pay a cent for tuition because either they received a full scholarship, or their parents pay for all of it. My parents don't pay any of my tuition, and whatever I borrow from them in order to pay tuition or for groceries I have to pay back right away. I've worked my ass off for everything I have and its still not enough. My good grades in high school weren't enough for a full scholarship (aka the "merit scholarship" Fitz had for Temple was really not based on "merit," but it was based on financial need. Fuck me, because my dad makes too much, but not enough to pay my tuition), and my pay for the hours of work I complete never amounts to the bills I owe. I guess this is growing up.
I wake up every morning at 8 a.m. for class or work, and go to bed at 11, but wind up not falling asleep until 3 or 4 a.m. because of the loud surroundings I live in now. Call it lack of sleep, or whatever the hell you want, but I am breaking down.
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