Reflection
Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
A burn with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside


This song hasn't come to the cd player inside my head for a long time. For some reason while I was brushing my hair in the mirror it started playing. I realized something when I listened to the lyrics, that I was fed up with people telling me how young I look. I really am. I never thought it bothered me before and I would laugh it off, but its gotten to the point now where my own doctor says I look like I'm 12 in a joking manner. I know I look young and I am still young, but I have seen almost 19 years, the latter ones having been the hardest of my life, and I want to be recognized for that accomplishment. I may look 12 on the outside but inside I'm 19, and I guess all this ranting is leading to the conclusion that I am fed up. I've heard all of the comments meant to make me feel better like "Oh well when you are fifty you'll still look young." But you know what? They don't make me feel better. I don't know...this post probably sounds really superficial but I'm feeling like a girl today and I hate it.