Going Under
Evanescence

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming Deceiving and Bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
(I’m going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowing in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under


Ok so this is my confession. I loved you. I worshipped the ground you walked on. And to quote Paula Cole, "I believed you were my god."

For two and a half years I suffered in silence. I lay there in bed with you while you discussed your love of the countless other girls, silently taking in my pain. Everytime you talked of her, I would imagine a knife cutting out my heart. Because that is what it felt like.

When I finally told you how I felt, you flew off the handle, but when you realized that it was ok to feel something for me, it was great. Until out of nowhere you started ignoring me. So fuck it. I'm done. I'm not going to chase you, call you or e-mail you, if you are wondering about my silence this past month. I am not going to constantly set myself up for nothing. You need to be free to find out what you want, and I need that for myself as well.

You have time, and I will always love you.

P.S. I am the type of girl who likes to get flowers.