"And as a result of her fault, she was not here. Adam thought sometimes that if he could only find out what sin it was she had committed, why, he would sin it too--and not be here." East of Eden, John Steinbeck

That quote is from the book I am currently reading. The sin they are referring to is suicide. And that is the topic of this blog.

Tarah and I were discussing the other day, how much will power it takes to actually take your own life. It goes against all natural instinct. In fact, humans are the only animals on the planet who commit suicide. I guess you could blame it on the higher mind power, and the ability to feel depression, loneliness, and despair. Surprisingly, suicide was brought up when I was chilling with Mike. We were watching Rules of Attraction, and a girl in the movie kills herself, and James Van Der Beek tries to kill himself. (Haha, sorry had to laugh.) So, suicide seems to be a common theme in my conversations lately.

I must state, under no circumstances am I suicidal. To be completely blunt with you, however, there was a time in my life when I was. I, obviously, have no will power because I failed miserably. Now, I look at it as being stupid and naive, because no matter how bad it gets there is always a way out. Not to sound cliche, but when someone hits rock bottom you have two choices--die, or go up. In my opinion...moving on up seems a better choice.

As a conclusion to this mindless prattle, life sucks....get a helmet.