"People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away/Well they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me/When I tell them that I'm doing fine watching shadows on the wall/Don't you miss the big time boy you're no longer on the ball/I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round/I really love to watch them roll/No longer riding on the merry-go-round/I just had to let it go/Ah, people asking questions lost in confusion/Well I tell them there's no problem, only solutions/Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I've lost my mind/I tell them there's no hurry/I'm just sitting here doing time..." -John Lennon, Watching the Wheels

John Lennon is the man. He knows what he is talking about, even if I don't have a clue. Ok, not really. I completely understand what he is saying. Anyway, that is my favorite John Lennon song. Today was a boring day. I woke up at noon, and missed Kate Hudson on the View. I was pretty pissed off because my sister was supposed to wake me up for it. I love Kate Hudson...I wish I was her. So I wrote a song today. Not about my love for Kate Hudson, but something that just inspired me while I was in the shower. However, by the time I got to my guitar, all I had was a catch phrase to start it off with, and no substance. So, I tried to form a substance, but failed miserably. The song will be burned.

I realize I am my harshest critic when it comes to my songs. I tear them apart until there is not even a base anymore. I need to learn to step back and view them from a detached standpoint. This will never happen because I am far too attached to my music to just let it slip away from me. My songs are my secrets, and the only thing that keeps me alive. Not many people have heard my songs...in fact as of late, no one has heard them. The songs I play for people have been destroyed because they are not good enough for me. Someday I will share the good ones, but for now, I just make my simple recordings and save them for myself.